Vengeance Before Death (miakayuuki06) wrote,
Vengeance Before Death

Living in irony and sweet bitter nostalgia

Is it ironic that when you don't want to talk, people ask you questions, and when you pour your heart out, they ignore you?

Is it ironic that everyone thinks I have this grandiose scheme of my life's plns laid out, when I don't even know how I'm going to finish up the day?

Is it ironic that I write passionate words when everything has died, but when everything is dying, I sit alone in self-pity?

Is it ironic that the one person I love doesn't love me back, hasn't been talking to me for 6 months?

Am I that fucked up? I thought about suicide for the first time in a very long time. I scared myself pretty badly. This happened on Friday. I was in office aid and I was fucking everything up and I kept looking out the window on the second floor of the NGC.

I really don't want to be here. I wish I could leave with Plami... I wish she could pack me in her duffle bag and fly me to Kansas with her. Fuck Texas! Fuck CLHS!

I am finally ready to leave. There isn't anything worth saving or even trying to salvage anymore.
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